Today was tough. Lots of sadness. Upon hearing sad news, my first immediate reaction was to turn to food. I was shocked because, minutes earlier, I'd felt as strong as ever. Just that quickly it all changed. I continued to want to eat and drink throughout the remainder of the day.
The difference this time is that I didn't act on it. I recognized it as an old habit to stress and pain. Then I allowed myself to feel the emotions instead of stuffing them. I allowed the tears to come and I verbalized how I felt. I said no to the urge to eat, whereas I used to feel completely powerless to say no.
In the past, I would have classified today as a bad day. It wasn't a bad, though. It was a good day, during which I was hit with some difficult news.
There was still a lot of good in today.
Gratitude:
1. I didn't eat over difficult news
2. I allowed myself to cry and acknowledge my feelings
3. I had another good day with E
4. Two of the kids' therapists who went way above and beyond today
5. A visit with my in-laws
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